I am a girl in search of a plan. I have decided I need to make some changes in my life. Changes regarding how I spend my time, my future “career”, and my spiritual diet.
The last couple of months have been very difficult. I have struggled with the guilt that I am not being the kind of wife I would like to be for my husband. Do not get me wrong he is the most wonderful man, and he never complains about me working, but I still wish I could give him more of myself when we are home together in the evenings. Often I just want to be alone to veg out on Pinterest or read blogs.
Like so many others I work outside of the home nine to five and struggle daily to juggle my job, housework, cooking, and fitting in workouts. I know there are many women out there who work, take care of the home, run all their errands, and on top of that are mothers. To all you women out there you have my utmost respect.
The simple truth of the matter is that I am young, married, working, and overwhelmed. Maybe that should be the title of this blog.
The only way I can see getting over this nagging feeling of guilt is to make some changes.
I know that I should start every day with time in God’s word. Devotions are great when you need something quick but it is not enought spiritual food to last you through the day. My current job is pretty stressful and I need more spiritaul food to get me through my day.
I always thought I knew what I wanted to do for a career. I went to college to persue that profesion and am now working in that field. In the last few weeks through prayer and searching my heart I have decided that the profession I am in is not one I want to stay in forever. God did bless me with talents that allow me to be good at what I do, but I think I need to use those talents differently. How you ask? I have no clue. I need to spend time praying about this matter and my prayer is that God will direct me to a profession that will bring joy to my heart.
Time is a precious comodity. One that I am still learning not to waste. When I come home from work in the evenings I really only have about 4 hours to play around with. During that time I need to cook, do housework, play with the dogs, exercise, and spend time with my husband. Believe me when I say those four hours go fast and I never get done with all the things I would like to. My husband is the one that usually gets shorted out on time and that is totally not how I want things to be.
Ok, so I know where I need to make some changes. Now the question is how. The only answer that comes to my mind is through God. He is the one that will help me come up with a plan to carve out more time to spend with my hubby, discover what my next “career” move will be, and minister to me through his word so that I may be better prepared to face whatever the world throws my way.